Why My Father Used to Buy Fruits by a Whole Box

In response to Dancing Elephants prompt 23 of 52

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Fruits! I grew up with lots of fruits all year round!

Bright red strawberries in the spring were sour and I used to sprinkle sugar. Nowadays, most strawberries are so sweet that no sugar is needed.  I guess the process of selective breeding has advanced so much in the last half a century.

Summer started with seedless grapes.  Delaware cultivar was the most common.  Did you know that people in Japan don’t eat the skin of grapes?  And watermelons –  my favorite! I could eat watermelons for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. 

Late summer to fall was fig season, although I didn’t care for it much… My tongue just doesn’t accept that texture.  Persimmons followed figs.  Our Pomeranian dog liked persimmons better than anyone else in our family. She could not stay still while my mother was pealing the skin. 

Then apples and oranges in winter.  My hands would turn orange by peeling the skins of so many oranges. 


In our family, it was not my mother but my father who brought fruits home.  Only four of us were in our family, my father, my mother, my younger brother, and me.  But my father would always buy fruits in a whole box from the wholesaler.  In a box, at least three dozen of apples were neatly lined up and stacked.  We tried to eat them all before they went bad, or simply gave some away to neighbors.

When my father was not at home, I asked my mother why he was so wasteful.  Granted that wholesale price was better than retail, but if he bought only as much as we could consume comfortably, we would appreciate the taste much better rather than shoveling in.

Then my mother started.

“When your younger brother was born, your father didn’t look excited but rather worried.  I asked him what was the matter, why he didn’t look as happy as when you were born.”

“Your father was afraid that now he has two children, those children would have to share one apple half.  You know, your father had eight siblings.  He never had an opportunity to eat the whole apple, but only one-eighth. Before your brother was born you used to have the whole apple.  Your father was afraid he could only give you half from now on.”


My father was 6 years old when World War II ended.  He grew up poor, not having enough even to eat.

Fortunately, my father could afford to buy a whole apple each for me and for my brother.  And more.  Maybe his urge to buy a whole box of fruits was a defensive reaction to his childhood trauma. 


After my mother told me this story, I stopped criticizing my father as being wasteful.  I simply thanked him for getting us abundant fruits.     

Things to Keep in Mind When Reading Medium Articles

A chance to expand your horizon

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When I started reading Medium regularly last fall, I was only sarching topics that I was more familiar with.  Keywords I entered  in the search field were “Japan,” “inspiration,”  and “environment.”  I encountered many interesting articles and authors. 

Medium sent me email messages full of more articles.  Its recommendations were based on articles I read or topics I followed.

After a while, however, I found myself reading similar content from mostly the same authors.  It was easy to reinforce what I believe in, but I was not learning new things. 


That’s the danger and limitation of not only Medium but any kind of online media, like Facebook, Twitter, YouTube, and Amazon.   Their recommendations spitted out by their algorithm are based only on my past behavior.  There is no surprise.

How can I replicate a similar experience as I would have in a huge bookstore?  How can I encounter a totally new author, topic, or title, and end up selecting a book that I had never thought of?


With Medium, I implement two things.

First, I type some words I never typed before.  I’ve never been to Latin America or Africa before, so I type those words. There are so many articles about such topics, and some writers are well-known as experts on these topics.  

Second, I gauge my reading time.  If the content is so new to me, it takes longer to read than what Medium indicates.  My signal is if it takes longer to read, I’m learning something new. 

I’m surprised to find out that I enjoy reading poetry, especially English Haiku and Tanka.  A genre that I never would have thought I would ever be interested.  Now I follow one of the publications of Tanka. 


Change the topics to follow once in a while, type in some new keywords, and consciously stick to reading articles that take me longer to read… In order to expand my horizon of curiosities, I’m trying these things when reading Medium.

What is your practice to find new surprises in Medium articles?

An Idea of Becoming Rich Fertilizer

I learned about Natural Organic Reduction (=human composting)

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The Northwest Flower & Garden Festival was full of garden and plant lovers.  Located just an aisle away from the main stage, our Ikebana International Seattle Chapter 19 booth was attracting many visitors. 

“How beautiful!”  “Oh, I want to learn Ikebana myself, too!” Such words always fuel us volunteers with more passion to serve those visitors with creative flower arrangements to be displayed at the booth.

I was assigned to be sitting at the booth as a host from 6 to 8 pm.  Since I got a one-day ticket, I went to Seattle Convention Center early afternoon, so I could walk through the entire event floor before my shift. 


Dream gardens with waterfalls and rock patios, many house plants displays, rows of flower bulbs for sale… It was a challenge not to open my wallet compulsively whenever I encountered unique foliage and blossoms. (I bought a couple of bulbs of two types of lilies, Star Gazer and Casablanca.)


My highlight of the day, however, was that I learned about natural organic reduction, a fancy term for human composting. 

A Seattle-based startup called Recompose had a small booth.  They didn’t have any sample products to try or fancy-looking tropical plants on the booth.  Instead, there was a simple circular diagram with a photo of the forest on the panel. 

Next to the diagram, there was a US map with Washington, Oregon, California, Colorado, and a couple of states on the east coast highlighted in green.  Intrigued, I stopped by and started listening to the person at the booth talking.


According to the salesperson, these states have legalized human composting so far, and many more states are considering it.

The brochure of Recompose says, “For every person who chooses Recompose over conventional burial or cremation, one metric ton of carbon dioxide is prevented from entering the atmosphere.”

My body is nothing more than an accumulation of what I eat.  After my death, my body returns to the soil as fertilizer.  Not a bad idea.


I’m not ready to rewrite my will yet, but this encounter has ignited my interest in my “Ecological Death Care.” 

Can You Bring Nature into Your Home?

I began questioning the Japanese translation of the English word “nature”

Photo by Author Akemi Sagawa

I had a visitor from Japan last night.  As a nice gesture to welcome the guest, I cut a branch from the camellia tree in my yard, made a simple arrangement, and placed it at the entrance.


For me, this short stem with vivid red flowers and thick leaves in shiny green represents nature, with no doubt.  You can bring nature into your home.  Being at home and enjoying nature at the same time has no contradiction in my mind.

In articles written by American or western writers, however, nature seems to be something different.  In their articles, nature seems something you encounter or experience only when you drive away from the city and step into mountains or forests.  If you find man-made structures around you, you don’t say you are with nature.

I learned at school that nature is an English translation of the Japanese word “自然shizen”.  In my interpretation, the camellia branch I brought home is something of  “自然.”  However, maybe it’s not appropriate or it makes no sense to bring nature into a home?


Definitely some words, concepts, or expressions in one language has no direct translation into another.  “生きがい ikigai” is one example.  A simple concept the Japanese people take for granted, but a foreign one to the western culture.  Some people made a thorough analysis of this word and created a whole training business out of this concept.

Does “自然shizen” also fall in this category? Maybe I should be careful not to simply translate it into nature in English?   

My Mother Worships Mountain

And my grandma worshipped the sun… Is it that crazy?

Mt. Miwa – Photo by Author Akemi Sagawa

My mother visits Omiwa Shrine in Nara, Japan, every 1st day of the month.  It takes about an hour by train and bus from where she lives.  Rain or shine, she never fails to make a visit, and always brings back sacred water in bottles.  She shares the water with my cousin and her family who live nearby. 

Omiwa Shrine: Photo by Author Akemi Sagawa

Although Omiwa Shrine has an impressive building, the sacred object is not housed there.  The sacred object of worship is Mt. Miwa, a mountain, or rather a large hill behind the building. 

My mother told me that her mother (my grandmother) used to bow down to the rising sun every morning, praying that the day will be a good one for her and her family.  My mother has a little shrine at home and bows to that shrine every morning as well. 

Praying to the sun and worshiping the mountain… I grew up despising these behaviors of my mother and grandmother as superstitious and primitive.  In today’s scientific, modern days, they are outdated.


When I went back to Japan several years ago, I decided to accompany my mother to visit the shrine.  It was April 1st, and the cherry trees in the shrine property were in full bloom.  When I looked up at Mt. Miwa through the pink clouds of the cherry blossoms, I felt awed. 

The clothes that people wear, the vehicle they used to come here, and the buildings surrounding the mountain have all changed.  But for centuries and centuries, the mountain has welcomed those who come to worship it.


Even with today’s advancement of science and technology, there are so many things that human beings don’t know at all.  One scientist was saying in the interview that the more you research and study the more you realize how little the understanding is of us human beings.

Both my mother and grandmother realized that their existence is tiny compared with the sun, the mountain, or the whole existence in the universe.  Their perception is not blinded by the arrogance of human beings. 

What a fool was I to despise their behavior?  Time for me to be humble…

When Your Mother Becomes Your Daughter

Now it’s my turn to take care of her

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“Are you having enough vegetables?”

“Are you following the doctor’s instructions?”

“Don’t forget to go to the bank!”

“Be careful when crossing the street by bicycle.”

Those were my mother’s words I would often hear on the phone, when I started living alone, to go to college.  Mother, I’m not a little girl anymore.  Treat me as an adult, was my response.  To my mother, however, I was still her daughter who needed her care.


Forty years later, living thousands of miles apart, my mother and I video chat almost every day.

Now it’s my mother’s turn to hear words like those stated above from me.

Mother, it sounds strange, but I’m kind of happy to be able to treat you like my child.  Now I’m able to pay you back at least some of the abundant love you have given me. 

Let me keep on treating you as if you were my daughter, the longer, the better…

I Stopped Weighing Myself

And that was the best way to lose weight and keep it for 30 years

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In my teens and twenties, I was always overweight, by the Japanese standard anyway. 

I had a hard time finding good-looking skirts and pants in my size.  I hated my body shape, wished to be skinnier, weighed myself every day and night, got depressed if I gained half a pound, skipped breakfast, and got depressed again if the scale was not showing any sign of improvement.  For a while, I was in the state of eating too much and throwing up right away (is it called bulimia?). 

Then I turned 30. One day I told myself.  “Let’s stop weighing myself.  I will listen to my body.  I will eat as much as I feel like eating.  If I feel full, I will stop eating.” 


Listening to my own body… That was the best decision I ever made. 

Soon I stopped overeating and going to the bathroom right away.  Whatever the kilograms or pounds, I threw away the number to describe my weight from the primary place in my memory pool.  I was sick of creating an emotional rollercoaster every day by looking at the numbers.

Rather, I started touching my tummy, my thighs, arms, wherever in my body to give me some indication of my body weight.  If I feel a little more volume of fat than before, I told myself, “Maybe you don’t need much food,” then I ate less.

In the last thirty years, I wonder how many times I stepped on a weighing scale at home.  I have a scale, but now I use it to weigh our suitcases before going on a trip, not my body.   

I can still wear the same jeans I bought over ten years ago.  Once a year I step on a scale at the clinic for my annual physical checkup.  My doctor hasn’t raised a red flag on the number it spits out.    


I’m not a fashion model.  My thighs are still pretty substantial.  But I trust my own senses rather than a machine to tell me if I’m overweight or not.  I want to be in control of my physical status. 

Partial Myth of Rainy Seattle

It’s not as bad as you think

Photo by Author Akemi Sagawa

When my husband moved from Florida to Seattle, his colleagues gave him a raincoat as a farewell gift. 

As such is the reputation of Seattle.  A TV crime drama called Killing was set in Seattle, and it was raining in every episode.


Well, having lived here for 28 years, I have to admit that Seattle’s reputation as a rainy city holds.  According to National Oceanic and Atmospheric Administration (NOAA), the Average precipitation days is over 156 days a year.  It’s more than twice as many days as San Francisco (71 days/year), and 25% more than New York City (125 days/year).

By the amount of annual rainfall, however, Seattle doesn’t even come close to the top of the list.  With 39 inches, Seattle picks up less precipitation each year compared to New York City (47 inches). 

A drizzling shower early in the morning, thick fog developing late morning, the fog burns off by 2 o’clock in the afternoon, and the bright sunset… Such a variety of weather can be seen in a day, but still is counted as a rainy day. 


I took the photo from our window.  The rain shower cleansed the air.  The leaves are vivid green.  And here, it’s a rainbow!

Well, is half the myth of rainy Seattle gone?

Loving Yourself Is Your Ultimate Responsibility

In response to Dancing Elephants prompt 17 of 52

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When I read this week’s writing prompt “What Does Self-love Look Like To You?”, and wondered what I should about, the first scene that came to my mind was when I quit my job for the first time 32 years ago.


I was in Japan, working for a well-known investment bank, stepping up my career ladder, so it seemed.  The company had even sponsored me to study for two years to get an MBA in the US.  It was time to further advance my career in the company.

But instead, I chose to make a significant career change.  I decided to work for a much smaller, younger company, the Japanese subsidiary of a US-based IT company, to pursue a different goal: to eventually move to the US.  There was no guarantee that the young company would realize my goal, but I took the chance.

The Japanese company tried to dissuade me from quitting.  I felt guilty about quitting also.  The company had been so supportive of me.  How can I be so disloyal? (You know, the work ethics in Japan 30 years ago was a lot different than now.  Lifetime employment was still the norm among major corporations there.)

But my ultimate conviction was that there is always a replacement for the company, but there is no replacement for myself in my own life. 

If I don’t love myself first, who else can?  If I don’t take care of myself first, who else can?  If I don’t take responsibility for my own life, who will? 


My first expression of loving myself was quitting my first job to change my career. 

A Guy from India, A Gal from Austria, and Another Gal from Japan Will Be Traveling Together … Guess Where?

My travel wish list for 2023

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Our trip to Vienna last Thanksgiving was a special reunion.  After over 10 years of interval, my husband and I got together with our old-time Austrian friend and had a wonderful time together. 

She was a great host.  She showed us around the town, introduced us to her local friends, and took us to her favorite coffee shop and farmer’s market.  After spending seven days with her, my husband and I developed illusions as if we were locals of Vienna.

Photo by Author Akemi Sagawa


The final night in Vienna.  My husband and I were all done packing, but reluctant to admit we were leaving this beautiful city and our wonderful friend.  When will we see her again…

Then she brought her calendar.  So did we.  Now the COVID lockdown is behind us, my husband and I will get back to our routine of traveling abroad for Thanksgiving. Why not she joins us next year? Would be fun to travel together!  Where?

Somewhere warmer.  Somewhere sunnier.  Somewhere none of us have been before. 

It didn’t take too long for the three of us to come to an agreement. 

We will see each other again next November, in Israel!

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